One Day and Counting - God be with you till we meet again

Today was my final day in Utah. The last day until this new chapter in my life begins.

I had to finish all of my packing. There was still a TON to do, and I was completely stressed out. There were still things that I needed to get, and I was just ready to explode.

So I started to pack and get ready into the afternoon, and finally, when all that was practically left was washing my clothes and packing them, Brendan came over. I was supposed to be packing while he was here, but you know us, we mess around and don't get anything done. This was essentially no exception. It was so fun though, and totally worth it as the last day to spend with my boyfriend of 9 months (pretty good, huh?). 

So we spent a LONG time together, like 7 hours. Just the way I like it. Messing around and just being, well, a couple, and us. As everyone who knows us together has seen... We ate food and talked and practically made fools of each other, all with the watching eyes of Hailey. 

Practically the best 7 hours of my life.

So finally, as 11 o'clock rolled around, it was time to say goodbye for now. I was saying goodbye to my best friend and the boy that stole my heart and changed my life. It was so hard, knowing that the only time I would see him is through the screen on my phone or computer. The only ways to talk to him are through technology. And only heaven knows when the next time I will be able to hug him again (after the morning I leave - cause he is going to come say bye, isn't that so sweet?) So, yeah I cried. A lot. And the thing that made my cry was looking up and seeing tears streaming down his face as well. Real tears, from the man that has never cried over anything. That's powerful.

Words can't even express how truly grateful I am for this guy. His acceptance of me, and his love for me, are something that never made any sense, but it felt right. And because we were both willing to give all we had, our relationship was comfortable and great. I experienced the hardest thing I have had to face, and eventually, we will be together again, and I can smile. ( it sounds like he died or something - believe me, he is very much alive.)

I have been really mushy, I'm sorry... actually, I'm not sorry. I love Brendan and I don't care who knows it. My mom likes him, so that's pretty much all that matters.

Well, wish me luck. I love you all. and God be with YOU till we meet again!

~Jasmine

This is the Beginning

Hello Everyone! 

This blog is for all of you friends and family to keep up with me as I am making the most dramatic decision I have made in  my life. Going to Hawaii (almost 3000 miles away) for school.

As many of you know, this was not an easy decision, and it still pops into my mind if I have made the right choice to make this move. I have been packing, and it is so stressful trying to decide what to bring, and hoping I don't forget anything that is absolutely necessary. I am really excited to make this move, but it is freighting as well. 

Here it comes, The Reason for my questioning. You see, 10+ months ago I met a guy. We went to a dance and we were pretty good friends. Eventually, I started to like this guy ( as I have done many times in the past ), and it was so different from those other guys I had known. Months passed, and my feelings for him were stronger. We started dating, with a lot of things going against us. And now, I am happier with him than anyone else other than my family and my best friend. He really is my best friend and I love him with all my heart. Leaving him is the hardest thing that I have ever done, and I really really don't want to have to say goodbye. 

As I am packing, I cry a little... okay, well a lot. I am really nervous, and here I sit at 1 in the morning, it hasn't really really hit me yet that I'm moving in less than 36 hours. Wish me luck, I am going to need it.

~Jasmine