Back In "Paradise"

It has been quite month for me. So much has happened, and I find it really hard to believe that it has been a month since I last posted.

So, since I last posted, I have finished my finals. I took all 5 finals, and they were pretty good. I didn't do horrible on any of them, and I got a 3.6 GPA at the end of it all. My BOM final wasn't bad, it was on our own time and I got 100% woo hoo! My math final came out at like 88% or something like that. I got like a 95% on my Hawaiian Studies oral final with my 'ohana and we felt so relieved when it was finished. My english final essay went well and my research paper was graded as pretty good. My biology final was really short and I was the third to last final person to finish (it was only 39 questions long). So overall, it was great. I finished on the Thursday and went to see The Hobbit: The Desolation of Smaug with my friend Annette and it was such a blast and a lovely way to end my first semester of college.

When I woke up on Friday Morning, I realized that I literally wouldn't have anything to do until Tuesday, when I was set to go back to Utah. So, my amazing Daddy found a way for me to get home. I flew out of Honolulu on Saturday night, and landed in Las Vegas Sunday Morning. I didn't make the flights on standby and so once again, my parents saved the day and bought me a plane ticket. I chilled there for 7 hours. The most boring 7 hours of my life. Anyways, when I got back to Utah it was really great. It was so amazing to be back in Utah, and Utah Valley covered in snow from the air is a breathtaking sight. I was so excited to be home, even though I had no idea when I would be coming back to Hawaii. 

I had a nice time in Utah, I didn't do much outside of my house, unfortunately. I got to see my BESTEST friend in the world. Hannah. She was the first person not in my family that I went to see because I just couldn't wait any longer. We planned a double date with our significant others and I was so excited to spend time with Brendan... unfortunately for my tender heart, he didn't want anything to do with me. So, we didn't go and he and I ended up breaking up. I'm still not over it, and it literally shattered my heart. I never thought I would go through so much emotional turmoil because of love. It probably isn't good to spend so much time thinking about what went wrong, what signs there were that I ignored, and what I could have done to make him at least tell me when he started to not care anymore. It breaks my heart, and have a few feels and tears every once in a while. 

Being back at school at least keeps me semi occupied. I have a pretty rigorous class schedule and homework is quite substantial. Luckily, I have been managing it pretty well so far, and I am hoping that it stays that way. So, this is my last semester at BYU Hawaii. I am moving back to Utah in April, I am not exactly sure what is going to happen after I leave here, but I know that being here is not where I am supposed to be anymore. I still don't know if my major will be something be biological, or in social work. But now that I think about it, is that maybe meteorology again. If I study tornadoes and try to do a lot of research, I could help people and study the natural world. So yeah, maybe I'll take Marsha's advice and go on a mission and after I get back, things will work out. 

There are my late night thoughts. It really isn't that late here, but I am tired, but I know if I don't get my thoughts and feelings down here, I will forget the things that I am thinking and that'll be the end of it. Thanks for supporting me, I really do appreciate it so much. It's nice to know that even though I am physically so far away, some people still have my back and support whatever decision I make.

Happy Aloha Friday!

Jaz