January is half way over!

Whoa! Where did January go? I got here on the first, and now it is almost the 20th. I have had 2 weeks of classes, and they're going fine, and I am learning how to balance them a little bit.

Today at church, I tried to pay more attention to the speakers and teachers, but I had a little issue because I was so stinking hungry. I was also trying to pay attention to the spirit and only write down what I felt I needed to get out of what various people were saying. 

Here's some of what I got out of today:

~We don't read the scriptures to understand them perfectly, we read them to be cleansed from the inside out.

~When we read the scriptures, we are allowing the Lord to be able to change and improve us.

~Happiness comes from our obedience. (I had heard this before, but I thought it needed to be repeated because I know that it is important)

~We trust people and our hearts get broken, we're human.

So, yeah. That was the uplifting parts of church. 

I also finally wrote down my New Years Resolutions. I am not really a resolutions person because I have never been able to keep them, but I am really going to try hard this year. I tried to make them meaningful to me, and the things that I need to improve upon, but aren't to specific or difficult that it will be a challenge to achieve them. I am putting them here to have them somewhere other than the piece of paper I wrote them on, and so that some other people have seen them so I kinda have someone to kick me in the butt if I get so far off.

My goals to achieve sometime this year, to make a better Jasmine:

more exercise

meaningful scripture study

patience

listening ear

save

read more books

laugh more

less junk food

positivity

positive blog posts, with pictures

continue to keep the sabbath

let go of bitterness

So there they are. They may not make the most sense, but for me things are all about the little victories.  I'm not a person that likes big change, or is really capable of it (in my experience so far). Moving here was the most abrupt thing I've done and it hasn't been easy, and I have kinda lost myself. I haven't been doing the things I love to do, around the people that I love. I haven't really made myself at home here, because I know that eventually it will end - I try not to get too attached to things because it is just easier for me that way. I am trying t figure out who I am, what I stand for, and what I want to do with myself and I think that these resolutions will help me to figure that out.

This year is going to be one of big changes, and hopefully by 2105 I will be a little more on track to be the person that I know that Lord knows I can be. I also hope that someday, I can find the right guy for me because honestly, I have so much emotional baggage that I don't think I am going to find someone who is willing to put up with me and all the problems that I know come with me. I am trying, but change hard. Luckily nobody said it was easy.