Solitarily Social

I think, after months of being here in Hawaii, I have finally figured out what to call myself. 

Solitarily Social.

This may not make sense to anyone else but me, but let me explain. I love people, my mom pointed this out to be a couple years ago, and overall, people, especially close family, has brought me out of rough spots in my life. There was a time that I was very nearly depressed, so my mom started having people over a couple times a month, and I loved it.

While being here, I have tried to make an effort to make friends, but more often than not, it is just a small interaction every few days, and nothing else. To be quite honest, I don't really mind this. I try not to trust too easily because I have been hurt deeply by people I have trusted. 

Anyways, being here, and after going home for Christmas. I realized something really strange. I love being around people and most times I will take the opportunity to be around others. I also love being alone. I love to read a book or just watch TV. Most of my weekend nights are spent in my room either watching Netflix or reading a book or doing homework (rarely). Its a strange thing, and I don't know if its necessarily a bad thing, but sometimes I spend probably too much time alone and think too much and stuff.

So there are my thoughts, and they're semi interesting today. Does this make sense to anyone else? Or does anyone else feel this way about themselves as well?

Lots of Happy wishes from Hawaii,
Jaz